Homemade Happiness

have you ever been so overjoyed and happy that you just burst into tears???  yeah, this "Lucille Ball o' Emotions" turned on the water-works as soon as i got home today.  May 16, 2o11 will forever mark one of the happiest days in this crazy, beautiful life.  

i can't even explain the gratitude or exuberant, glittering bliss i have towards everything that has been happening in my life recently.  it is hard even finding words without immediately turning to dictionary.com!!  (*please note that i am in NO way trying to brag about my successes but rather share my extended euphoria with everyone!) 

- first off, i will thank my Lord Jesus Christ for this tremendous bundle of blessings he has brought into my life over the last 4 months.  i went from depressed, penniless, homeless, broken-hearted train wreck and transformed into a happy, hard-working, independent, stable and thriving face character at Universal Studios, and i couldn't have done any of that if i didn't have the unstoppable love of my Lord.  i am a whole-hearted Christian and believe that God sent his son to die for me on the rugged cross.  i will forever believe this.  anything is possible when you trust in Him!

- secondly, i must thank my family.  mum, pop, brothers Brad and Greg.  you are my support, my backbone, my oxygen.  they have been nothing but positive and encouraging during everything i have endured.  from working 2 jobs, attending school, attending dance rehearsals AND trying to make ends meet while pursuing my career at Universal, they will always have my back and will always love and support me, even when i'm hurting, financially, physically or emotionally.

-lastly, i thank all of my friends.  Facebook friends, friends i see on a regular basis, friends from work, friends from school and dance, ALL OF YOU.  you have continuously congratulated me and my endeavors from day one and your encouragement, compassion and brotherly love is what keeps me confident and standing tall.  thank you from the bottom of my heart for believing in me!!!   

whew, now that all of the "mushy" crap is out of the way, i will share a tid-bit of my current paradise.  i am almost finished with community college.  i realize i still have about another year or so until i can graduate with some sort of degree, but i will be content in knowing that i paid for it and received my college education all on my own.  i have a fantastic office job a few days a week with some of the most terrific bosses you don't just find around the corner.  i like to consider them my "Father and Brother" understudies... i mean, they bought me the ENTiRE "I Love Lucy" DVD Collection to help further my career at USH!!!  you don't get much cooler than that  ;)  i have been dancing for 18 years and continue to dance my little heart out (as listed in a previous blog in April).  it keeps me healthy, fit and happy.  i strive for bettering my life knowing i have the talent and ability to express my emotions through movement and dance.  on the weekends, i occasionally do the famous Captain Morgan or Jose Cuervo promotions (as seen in photos on my Facebook) which is just the bees-knees as far as extra "fun money" goes!

and finally, (the biggie), i was recently permanently hired at Universal Studios... my DREAM job!!! 

after being at the park all day for training, interacting with the characters and just goofing off with friends, i came home to my cozy little room in Fullerton, dropped my bags and began happily sobbing.  i am 23 years old and not only have already  accomplished a ton for my age, but am currently accomplishing what most kids my age only dream about doing.  i am one lucky girl to have all of the opportunities that i do at this very moment in my life!  80 years from now when i am crippled over and too weak to walk, i will reflect back on this particular day and escape to paradise once again, remembering this natural high i was enveloped in.  this feeling of utter amazement and glory is something that every person should feel at least ONCE in their lifetime.  please believe me when i say, whatever negative situations or trials you are facing or may face, they won't last long.  there is always a down before there's an up!

i can proudly say that i am in love with myself once again.  this life i have, the family and friends behind me, i am just speechless.  the doors that i have constantly waited on are finally open.  after years of doubting and feeling dumped off, useless, worthless and practically ashamed of myself, i can confidently express my undeniable sense of pride and honor that i have towards myself.  i am one incredible woman, with a heart as big as the sun, dripping with merriment and mirth, and i did it ALL ON MY OWN.

my advice to my readers:  YOU CAN DO THIS TOO!!!!!  don't EVER depend on someone else for YOUR happiness.  you call the shots, you wear the pants, you drink the drinks.  life is too short to sit in the waiting room... get up and go to a dentist that's available!  (if you catch that metaphor.)

all my love and luck to you fabulous, gorgeous creatures out there  ;)